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YSaturday, December 19, 2009' 11:11 pm

Right , this shawty here told me to update her blog . kaay , so , what should i update about ? congrats to this shawty for promoting to sec 5 :D let's be proud of her ^^

we first know each other on the 19th of dec through habbo . on the 22nd , i ask her for a stead (?) yes ? no ? hah . i cannot remember . then she reject . hahaaa , she told me she need time . then , i ask her , 4 days later , which is on the 26th and finally , she accept (: i find her very loving , sweet , gorgeous . she trust me alot , that's what i can say . we had our first conversation a week later . it seems weird . its on sunday , 12 45 pm , where she was getting ready , to madrasah .
then , from there , we had night calls . we talked till morning . we even count how many times her hp off by itself . i remembered , 6 ? there's one day , she cant pronounce my name and called me putra ? she cant pronounce the " Heizad " so somehow , we start to call each other " heyhey " as in Heizad and " huhu " as in Humaira . cuteee or whaaat ?! then , we always chat with each other on sunday morning until she go to madrasah .

errr , i forget the rest . shit ! there's this once , where she had to go her Unity camp (?) on the 17th March . i really missed her alot , really . she went there for 3 days 2 night . that week also , i had to go to Paris . We then otp together for the last time before I go Paris on the 21st March . she really dont want me to go . on the 21st also , i tried to scare her by saying there's ghost behind her and etc . heh , but i have to . we lasted for 4 months , yeaaah , 4 . heh , on the 14th April , we otp again but her handphone went off and i didnt called back . i was too tired . veryvery tired .

since then , we otp lots of times , if possible , i wanna hear her voice everyday . i really want to otp till morn but i know i cant cause the next day , there's sch . when Maira otw home from tuition , we usually otp together , around 9pm then i will disturb her like someone's following her and etc . sometimes , she's pissed off with me . hah , sometimes , im being cheeky so i make her feel irritated . hahaha . then , there's this once where we had to say "ily" to each other , we were shy back then , who said first ? of course , the guy said first . since then , we kept saying "ily" to each other plus moremoremore and etc . heh ,

on the 26th , we break off , i guess my love alr fade ? maybe hers ? we fought . yes , i was pissed off with her too . maybe because i alr like another girl ? uhhh ! on the 12th of may , i guess she hated me veryveryvery much for bust-ting her ? im really sorry but it really wasnt me , that day , who text you . since then , we didnt contact each other until the 21st of Oct . long right ? i know . longlong break . i really thought she forget me already and i really want to contact her again but i didnt have the courage ):

5 - 6 months just past like that , and its already October . im glad that i get to contact her again cause i really miss her . every step i took without her , it seems wrong . we patch up (; since then , we otp quite alot of times . heh , sleepless night , i guess ? on the 23rd of midnight, i countdown with her since it was her birthday on the next day . we chatted and countdown together . then , in the morning , we otp at 8 till 1 , i even sang for her . hah , was forced to and she was late because of me . hahahhaa , on the 30th where she went to ETP because its halloween , i asked if she wanna otp and she said yes . then , we otp forawhile and she said she was tired . so we hang up and somehow , i was a lil bit pissed off . i didnt blame her . someone told me smth bad about her . then , i was really pissed off and we break up on the 31st of midnight .

i really had to blame myself . cause i trusted that someone rather then trusting my own girlfriend , stupid enough ?
we didnt text each other since then . on the 7th , she told me she went to KL . and on the 10th , we clear things up . we admit to each other how we really feel . we otp that night from 11 till 330 am . woaaaah , hahhaa , the next day , we otp from 9 till 11 . on the 16th , we otp again from 12 till 3am . on the 17th , otp at 3pm till 6pm. then i went to sydney :D i still wish her on the 24th and also , 26th . on the 28th , we otp at 11 till 1 , then otp again at 2 till 5 . when we talk , we used the " awaaak , kiteee " thanks to me . it was hard cause we had to whisper . since then , we always said those words and also " haram " . hah , ahhaa . on the 30th , otp at 8 till 12 . on the 2nd of dec till 6th , she went to langkawi . on the 1st , i had my operation . on the 7th , she told me she still love me and we patch up . 9 , 10 , 11 , she was admittted to hosp . 12th , she told me , she doesnt love me . see , i still remember . i dont blame her though . HAHAHAHHA . on the 17th , we went paris together :D otp at 3 till 3.30 since my battery was low .

all i ever want her to do is to stop doing stupid things , stop hurting yourself and also , stop skipping her meals , i really want her to get well soon cause i know , she can . she never fails to make sure i eat my medicine already and she will pissed off when i called her " shawty or belo " heh , she was a blur queen , really . i enjoy all my moments with her , i mean ALL . i still remember how i used to encourage her stuffs like studies , cross country and etc . lols . hah , there's once , i was late to sch , to take my exam , Maira encourage me , believe in me that I can do it . :D

because of her encouragement , i did quite well , thanks to her . i really dont want to lose a friend like her , especially when its almost been a year , knowing each other . those 5 months , we suffer like hell right ? heh , i dont wish to see and hate to see Maira , suffering and hurting . all i want is , to see her smilling , make her happy , make her laugh . help her solve her problems and everything . how i wish she doesnt have to suffer so much . if only i could share her sufferings .

those memories , i will never forget them even though i forget some alr . even though we can only be close friends for now , i dont mind as long i can still contact her right ?

i really appreciate everything she did to me , all those sacrifices , thankyou so much . thanks for accompanying me , those nights , otp with me . thankyou . appreciate it lots . im sorry for hurting you again and again . i really am ! i didnt know why i kept hurting you . if only , i didnt . i dont want you to be sad anymore . live you life ! :D it hurts me to see you suffer , really . im willing to sacrifice anything just to make her happy . i want to be there when she need me .

heh , im doneee . Maira , your lateeee . see , im faster than you that means , IM HAWTER THAN YOU !

Hawtest guy ever on earth ;

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