YTuesday, December 22, 2009' 11:28 pm
Fucking bloody shit siaaaaa (!!!) I totally dont understand parents , seriously shit !
I just got my Nlevel results and i scored pretty well for it even though i didn't meet my mum's expectation which was below 10points .
At first , i didn't know she was expecting that high for me because we didn't talk for so long until the night of the results .
Secondly , she picks up my call and didn't say ,'Im proud of you' , 'Congrats!' , 'Alhamdullilah' , or anything that i was expecting .
Instead she said , 'So , how As ygot ? I really expect alot from yknow .'
Fucker siaaa , pissed off man ! Its good alr i met my expectations because its my exam .
I took the damn exam not her and if she wants to have any expectation from me , tell earlier laaa !
Pissed of shit yknow , really ! I feel like just shouting in front of her damn fucking face .
My patience level is really decreasing till i cant tolerate her anymore .
Adding on , i asked for Nikon/Cannon Camera after Nlevel but my parents said i will get it when i passed/promoted to Sec5 .
So indeed , i was promoted to sec5 then when i call my dad , he said , 'Alhamdulillah . Im proud of you , Maira . Kay , now ycan go claim the camera from your mum . Abah , busy now . Bye .'
Oh my god ! It was my first hearing my dad those words to me )':
I broke down right away but of course was too shy . I didn't expect my dad to say those meaningful words . At first , i thought my mum were gonna say those words but in the end only my dad appreciate everything i do .
And that night , when we had supper , i asked my mum , 'Ma , so do i get the camera i want ?' She said , 'No no no no, not good enough !'
Bloody shit siaa :/ My dad straight away said , 'Ma , give her la alr . She alr pass kan ?'
I salute my dad man . At least , he keep and fulfill the promises he made butbut my fucking mum dont . Its a sin to make a fake promise . A promise where ycant fulfill it , dont yknow that mum (?!)
I cried the whole night thinking why she isn't proud of me when i worked my ass off for Nlevel .
Then come the unlucky day or maybe simple , 'totally not my day, day' .
I was otp with Mat Z then suddenly my hp off by itself . I just wanna have fun talking to him , telling him abt stuff i never told him before but maybe luck wasn't there for me .
I tried charging it for 30mins , but when i pressed the 'ON' button , nth happen .
Just the black blank screen shown (!!!) Fucker laa ! I threw my hp on the floor , smack it , knock it , smash it , anything that i can think of just to on my hp .
For 2hours i didn that , and nth is still shown . Fed up siaaaa !
So , i used my mum spare hp but that hp have a problem with the battery .
Even if i charge the hp for 1 day , i can only use it for 1hour , maximum (!!!) Waaah , really siaa , this china hp is really USELESS :/
Urgh . That day wasn't really my day man . Stupid budget hp ,
luar jer nmpk mahal padahal mcm siaal .I have alot to say about my mum seyh butbut i know its bad talking about family stuff here .
I just couldn't help it , her reaction , everything about my results .
She comment on all my sub whether i improved in any . In matter a fact , i did except for my Emaths but still i got distinction . C'mon laa , any mum can see if there's any improvements or not comparing to the prelim results .
My prelims , i failed 3subjects and getting U-graded and for Nlevel i passed all my subjects including POA (!!!) The worse was C5 but still from 3subjects failed till none .
Why my dad could see it but not my mum shockingly (?!) My dad dont even know how to count the points or even the new system to promote to sec5 and yet he congratulate me .
Whatever it is , im so pissed off him my mum , Then she said she's going to buy new handphone for me . I was like superduper excited ! but i thought she's gonna bring me along when she's buying the hp but she didn't.
Kay , so idk whether she's gonna buy the budget kind or maybe the one i want .
So , when she came home just now , she told me that the new hp she's giving it my bloody sis and the budget hp that my bloody sis is using will be hp so called new hp .
Whathefuckk (?!) but she's trying to so called impress me by changing to line because all this while i've been using ppd . So friends , anything ask me for my new number but currently still using my old number (:
Superduper irritated ! So pissed off that i argued at my mum and sis .
They say i must choose between Camera or Hp . I said , 'I wont pick because i know i worked my ass off , and i earned both of them . Plus i didn't purposely spoil my hp it just budget thats why' . I freakingly said that because my mum promised me to buy NEW hp for me but in the end she gave it to me bloody fucking shit sis .
Waah ! like so proud to have new hp . She didn't even do anything big but she gets the new stuff . Fuck her lah siaaa (!!!)
I show this attitude face to my mum and fucking irritating idiotic sis and said , 'Ythink by changing it to line , i'll be happy ? Not ! Im so not gonna use this number till i get what i every wanted for so loong since before my Nlevels started . I know by hard , i earned it alooot !' .
Then came my dad , my sis showed off her , opps , supposedly-to-be-mine hp to my dad .
and dad said , 'Eh ! Nono , Maira should use that hp not youu . Why yget ?'
My idiot sis said , 'Maira asked for the camera alr whaaat . I get the hp laaa .'
My dad shouted , 'Maira's hp cant be used anymore and she's cant use that hp . and there's nth wrong with your previous hp right ? Give it to Maira now ! '
still she so stubborn to give it to me . well , of course i dont say that my dad backing me up but because i really need it , if not i cant be contactable !
Stupid , she obviously never use her bloody brain to think , having a hp is good enough even if its the budget kind or lastest kind .
Now , that stupid china hp im using now , is superduper useless really . Idk how to say how useless the hp is but its veryveryvery useless . Ask Rabiaa , if ydont believe :/
This situation happened just now , like afew hours ago .
I feel like crying on the spot because i really cant take it with my mum's and sister attitude.
they're really freaking pissing me off ! and whatssup with my mum making fake promises to me (?!) Can yimagine , your own damn mum do that (?!) No , idts .
My mum really thinks i didn't do well for my Nlevels , so why should i care going to Sec5 .
I have a choice if i wanna continue to sec5 or either go Higher Nitec .
Waaah ! If i know my mu will react and show this kind of attitude to me , im sure never to hand in the Green Continuation form to Sec5 (!!!)
Then i should go to Higher Nitec where i can choose my courses which im interested in and whatsoever .
Urgh ! I just feel like strangling my mum and smacking my fucking bloody idiot sis face till she bleed :D
