I cant put into words how painful the pain is . Its reallyreallyreally painful .
I just want the pain to go awaaay because it hurts me so bad .
The pain just keep coming on and off , why must it be that way ? Cant it just be over ?
I dont wanna make this life of mine , a hurtful & painful one . I just wanna die .
I really cant stand the pain anymore . If ythink im very happy person , well that shows on the outside . In fact , im really hurt deep inside . I know i shouldn't write all of this to the public but i had to this grp of ppl that im really not lucky after all , if yknow what i mean .
I just had afew symptoms about it , so it might be real . Idk .
Im really tired to go through these check ups , injections , scan-through , everything .
I'd rather die in my sleep than anything else .
Why cant I just not live in this world like this ? God had made me sudder in this world , well its really a challenge . Im running out of time , and im lost where to go next .
Whether i should just keep living or just let me die ? I hate to see ppl worrying about me because of this . I cant stand it anymore .God , pleasee help to recover ! Im praying everyday just to gain my life back & to make it better . God , pleasee fulfill it .
All im left to do is to help myself to live as long as possible . I dont always depend on medications , because i know God has the will to .

P/S : every hour the pain keeps coming back , cant help it no moree )':

Siti Nurhumaira.
16 years old.
Turns a year older on 24 october.
Schooling in Damai Secondary.
Current mood : LONELY ):

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Shahzeleemi
Saiful
Zhappy Rascal
Mark Mydin
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Rara.N
Afifah
Yan
Raikha
Fatin
Zakiyah

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