YFriday, March 27, 2009' 12:25 pm
Monday
I had Crew session in the afternoon as Talentime is coming . We were clear what we're suppose to do on the stage . All of us were nervous because you may not know if the audience will love it or not .Our performance is 2mins tops . I know its short but its worth watching as we put our efforts in like a million times . At 5pm , we rushed to Peninsula to buy the crew shirts . Its like damn baggy and long for us , the girls as it was supposed to be a guy's shirt . Well , we girls , were suppose to try to be/act/talk/dance/walk like a guy :D The shirt was 10bucks , so we bought 6shirts for the whole crew . Me and rabia had to rushed to Tuition in the evening . So , we went home first , got changed and reached tuition almost to 8pm . That day , i was the rushing-iest day ever (!!!) At tuition , i saw Alep and he was bald . Completely shocked , veryvery the different yknow (!!!) When im look/talk/laugh/with him , my mind suddenly think of Bby . Alep is just as funny/charming/cute/sarcastic/interactive/friendly/problem solver as Bby :{ That proves , i miss Bby aloot , right ?
Tuesday
I can feel the sick mood is coming . But i still endured for the whole day . In the afternoon had Talentime Rehearsal with the other contestants in the Singing and Band Category . We are already the winners of the Dance Category but we're competing for the Overall Talentime Winnner . Ended at 5pm . We had the last crew session before the big performance tmr . As usual , Me and Rabia head home first , changed & went to tuition . We had earlier SMS that our Science teacher wont be coming . So , we did our 'Funkytown' sign for tmr's performance & 'Vote for B.S.C' token for the audience to support us :D We had help from tuition mates .
Wednesday
We got released earlier than the rest . Got Changed & run through the sound check everything . The crew , had last minute touch ups & ready to go . We had butterflies in our stomachs before the performance when we're at the backstage . "Next is Beat Stylez Crew performing with masks on . Put your hand together for B.S.C " We're ready to go . We hear our friends/fans supporting , cheering for us . We saw banners held high . That way , our confidence is up there :D We're proud of ourselves that we made it through . We made a decision to stay as a crew for dont know how long . When we're in a crew , me put in effort as a crew , do everything as a crew , work our asses off as a crew :} Then i realised that maybe , Bby is proud of me about having high hopes for me . Idk .
After school , i did my Holiday Homework which is supposed to finish during the Holidays . Then , i had Cheerleading Practice . Finally , we had something to 'WOW' the judges . Straight from school , head to Tuition with Rabia with our crew cap/shirt on . By then , my voice totally changed .
Thursday
Happy 3rd Monthsary to Bby :} I love you no matter what happens . Or wherever you are , whatever you're doing right now , i will always love and care for you . Keep that in mind . My heart wont let you go . I need you to know , I miss you Bby . Currently , im sick . Why must it be today ? Idk . Maybe i feel your pain ? Idk . You told me not to wait for you ? What should i do then ? Am i confusing myself ? Do you really really love me ? Do you miss me ? Do you even think of me when you're there ? Are you searching for someone better than me ? Are you letting me go ? Do you even care for me ? Do you hear me ? Are you forgetting about me now ? Are you fooling around with my feelings ? Are you loving someone else ? & Dont you love me ? :( :( :(
I had Dance practice in the afternoon . I chose Krump ? Is it okay ? Whats that ? Does it fit for a girl to dance Krump ? Idk . Tons for Questions in my head right now . Dont know how to answer each and every one of them . Luckily there's a friend to help me . I really appreciate and cherish her friendship towards me :} First , i had to master the basics , then work on the advance part . But actually i love to do Freestyle and they said i had a potential to be a B.Girl . Yknow ? Breakdancer . Idk . & i dont take their compliments too seriously . As i know , my passion is Dancing . Head home first , got changed , met Rabia and went tuition straight . At tuition , we waited for an hour and a half for our Science teacher to arrive . & i gain knowledge though .
& now , my flu is here and my voice is getting worse . I sound like a guy or maybe a rocker ? Seriously .
Friday, Today
Its an official day that im down with throat infection . I skipped school today . Rabia said , they learn a new topic for Amaths today . Damn ! I shall make it up someday . At 11 , i went to the clinic . Mind me , its not that near well , if it's for a sick person to travel by walking . I swear , i can faint anytime when im otw to the clinic but i forced myself not to . In my mind , i keep thinking of Bby so , he wont worry about me when im sick . Anyway , he's sick too but im worrying right now . He's memory brings my faith high . Bby , i need you now , can ? Im having a hard time getting up from bed this morning . My muscles are really aching really bad and i couldn't stretch it to the back . Its reall freaking me out . I need a good massager right now ? Pretty please (!!!) I'll be going tuition later . & for the second time in my secondary life , im not attending Npcc Training . It feels so great , N-O-T ! (coughs)
