I really dont want you to go .
I just want you to stay with me here .
I dont want you to leave me here in sorrow .
You made me cried alot when i read your updated post .
But after i went offline , i already had the feeling of upset-ness and missing .
Im missing you , Bby .
Why must you someplace far ? And why so sudden ?
Why did you tell me at the last night we're gonna be on the same ground ?
We had our last call , but it end like i thought it would be .
I haven't had the chance to say "I love you" to you otp but you said .
Even though you said it , whisper-ly . I still apprciate it Bby .
Now that , you're farfarfar away from me , all i could is stare at the blank screen and wait .
Waiting , for the "popping" window to appear and show "[[Zaddie]]" to come online .
I just wish you could online everyday , but you can't.
If you ask me to do so , i will just for you . Yes , i will .
Not even a day passed , and im already asking you to come back to me .
I know you keep many things away from me .
And you also do what's best for me ?
But must it involve you going to a place where i couldn't meet you ?
Have you ever thought that we will meet someday ?
Im much appreciated that , you do things thats best for me but is it best for you too ?
Idts . But instead the thing you do , made you feel more upset/sick .
How could you ?
It really hits me hard when you say you're going away tmr . (which is today!)
I broke down straight away , & you wouldn't know because you can't see me through the screen .
I just feel different when you're away , someplace i wouldn't know & see/go , to a place where i know , & i can go to .
Its hard to understand me . but i understand myself best .
You taught me to really love someone .
You taught me to understand people's feelings .
You taught me to overcome bad situations .
You taught me to be calm whenever im pissed/mad .
You taught me to be patient everytime .
You taught me to remember how life hard can be .
You taught me to be a better person .
You taught me to get over problems easily and correctly .
Bby , you taught me everything that should be taught in life .
Bby , you're my life & mine is yours.
I really really really do love you . I know you do too .
Bby , just be strong , and dont ever absorb negatives comments so easily .
Its really crap if you do . Do you even trust me , Bby ?
If you do , dont believe what my friends had said about you . sometime i just dont agree with them because they dont know you .
They know you through me , because i kept talking about you with them .
That mean , i always keep thinking of you in bad terms and good terms too .
Dont worry , be happy . And you too have to be strong .
Face all the challenges ahead of life and get those hurdles away from the right path .
I really need you in my life like the grass needs the warmth & water to grow .
I just dont feel that great/happy as before when you took off .
We just got to keep trying and trying in whatever we do , Bby .
The challenge we took was being in long-distance relationship and see how long have we gone through all this while ?
This month, is almost gonna be our third Monthsary if we could make it through together & we can , Bby .
Being apart from you , its hard thing for me as i never been in a long-distance relationship before. & im really trying hard to make it last long .
I know that we can . Never say "I can't" . Its stupid .
For the first time , im really proving to my love for you .
And im kinda suck at it . But im trying my best right ?
Its the effort and hard work that count right ?
Bby , just remember , i will always love you .

As im typing this long post , im trying to let out all my feelings . And be positive , Bby . Im on a verge of tears, and yet i still let it out now . I cant hold it inside forever . I really need a shoulder to cry right now . How can anyone help me now ? All , i ever wanted is just your love , Bby .