YSunday, October 12, 2008' 11:24 pm
I dont know what much to post tonight.
Maybe back to blogging almost everyday now? not?
Well, everybody is starting to blog but i have my own limits.
Planning to spent just 5hours of computer time per week. will i?
I shall continue my story of (dontknowwhatsthetitleis).
Im just hoping better friendship in the future. Not only in school but outside too.
Family can settle inside the fence. For me i can settle any problems by using the easy method.
You may not want to know what is it. Its kinda the bad way, another way of saying it.
But from now i shall try not to run away from any big or small matters.
For them, i need to make the first step by asking them why this why that.
But its for my sake too. I dont want to lose their friendship just because of a stupid matter. Nobody wants.
I did try to talk thing over with her but i think its the not the right place and time.
I started by asking her why this. Then she just kept saying that. I cant exactly post here about what she said.
I understand what she meant was.
I could really see that they are concern about me but really i dont need that much care from them.
I said so because i know, i wont be there with them most of the time as they both are much closer than they with me.(if you could understand)
What im trying to say is that they are not much my type of friends i should have in school but its my luck to have them in sight.
I couldn't blame them too of having me with them, but only when im in bad terms then they will start to care and concern to me. Thats not what friends are forever means. In any terms, bad or good they should always been there. Only with valid reason.
Im much of a happy/laugh out loud/cheerful/outspoken kinda person. But they are likely the opposites.
Obviously they are not comfortable with it, having a friend that laughs loud and no sense of humour.
They tried to back off but i changed myself and try to fit in. I mean seriously fit in.
I tried to match with them, started to agree with them.
Even though its not the right thing to do, i still did it for the sake of be-friending with them.
I mean come on im not that despo of having friends when i know they are not.
Im just trying to know more about them and how they live life. More of course!
Suddenly, i get back to my senses and thought that this ain't right. So i changed back.
Along the process, i kept disagreeing with them. Starting to have the opposites.
So what i we have nothing in common? At least, 1 thing in common is oright. More would be better.
When we have the opposites, debates will begin.
Heloo? Earth to them! : We are not that superb in debating so dont act like they are!
You may have the strongest point to back up your stand so as the opponent.
Dont only think for yourself please, think more than yourself.
Thought of the phrase: Feels for others if you care about them, yet?
I ain't saying that im the perfect person. No one in this world is perfect. Get a life if you think you are!
I ain't stupid if they are whispering about something i should not know.
From their actions/faces i could tell that something's on.
Every teen wants the best for themselves, who doesn't?
So do i, i have a life. I have my future stated above my head. I just wants the best and not the touch and go memories.
Thats for it. end of the chapter once again.
Wait till more. but i think you'll get bored of it. sure!
I'll post about other better part of life. Till then, :D
