YFriday, July 11, 2008' 9:02 pm
Helooooo.
Im here for the same Mission. haah~
THURSDAY(10/7)
Had Amaths Study Hour after school.
My brain cant think in the afternoon, seriously. esp when its right after school.
So that day, i didn't get anything in my head (catch the ball?)
What a waste of time, correct?! haissh, One day i will get use to it.
Ended around 3.30pm? Headed home straight away with Dahyu.
At night, talked to Nadhira on the phone for around 2hrs?
We can talk even longer but she wanted to watch this chinese drama show, so ended it around 9pm?
Get stuff ready for Np training. Its like the lower sec didn't need to come to school so they need not attend the training but we, Sec3s must attend. What The Fuck Sehh!
Sleep.
FRIDAY(11/7)
School was normal except when it comes to recess time.
I dont know why (insertnamehere), thinks i dont trust her.
Why cant she just tell me what was it about.
So im being left out. Seriously.
I hate hate hate the feeling of that. Because i''ve felt it so many times
And dont want to feel the same way again,
Why can she trust (insertnamehere), but me?
Im so annoyed and angry. Urgh~ : X
Or maybe (insertnamehere) scared to tell me because maybe that person she's talking about is my friend? Or does she just doesn't want me let me know.
She ever once said to me : We will always be friends for life.
And now, see? What's happening?
Just because (insertnamehere) is much much cooler than me or anything i dont have about her, you are trusts her more?
Once said :Keep secrets to ourselves only, between us not others.
Now? you didn't keep the promise to me.
Well, that explains it all why i was so quiet just now in class.
Thats my kind of behaviour when someone shows me that he/she doesn't trusts me at all even he/she is your closest friend.
Haissh. Im just now very blank and speechless.
When coming to the end of school, my (insertwordhere) started to pain again. This is the second time of the week.
I really hate this, why cant i just live a normal life like others. Why must I have this (insertwordhere) problem in my life now? Why cant it to when im much much much older like in the 60s or what, so i can Die just like that. Why must it happen now? :(
Now, i just need a shoulder to cry on, someone whom i really adore and love.
And someone, who could be my listening ear when i need to tell my (insertwordhere) problem at the right time. But not Only 3people knows about my(insertwordhere) problem.
Those people are the ones whom i really love and adore. But something might change overnight.
IDK why, but i think of it that way.
But i know, Nadhira will only be the only person who really really understands me. RIGHT?
#$%^
I think this post is too long right? haah~
Actually there's more, but to be continued till tmr.
Take care people, blogreaders :D
